#LOST TO TIME PHRASE MOVIE#

Im worried about telling the credit card company about charges i dont recall making as they may cut off my CC and i need it to live.Īlso afraid to go to a psychiatrist for other reasons including losing my job, but i wont get into detail about that here. I wanted to get a home security system that i could record my whole day in the house on and then i thought since the gaps are longer id need like a week or month of recorded days to go back through, and i dont have money for a setup like that or the time to review all the footage, nor would i know what to look for. So i started watching 'people of earth' and an episode kinda of got me thinking about 'lost time'.Īnd that had me google and found this page, looks like im back into the google rabbit hole while i search for more as im thinking maybe split personality disorder?

#LOST TO TIME PHRASE MOVIE#

I feel like im in a movie where someone has split personality disorder, because ive never heard of a ghost with an email account. Things are not in places i left them (nobody else lives with me). If it was just once here or there im sure we all get those, but the same name keeps coming up more than others. If i bring it up 'think you have the wrong number' they laugh and call me by the other persons name as if im joking, and i tell them 'dont call back you HAVE THE WRONG NUMBER'. I feel like im hacking someones account as i read emails that were not meant for me, or sent from me. like someone hacked my phone, configured an entire email account, and has bunch of sent messages in the outbox. if i delete the email, the next day or wekk or month, it shows back up. I have multiple email accounts on my phone and sometimes i get emails for someone by another name. Otherwise, it's remarkably easy to miss what you're missing.

And in my experience, the only surefire way to know you’re losing time is if you happen across clear evidence that directly contradicts your memory. Dissociative amnesia is far more insidious than most people realize. Had my partner not mentioned the date of our guest’s departure, I would never have realized I’d missed those five or six days.

Without external evidence butting up against my perceptions of reality, there’s nothing to clue me in to the fact that I’ve lost time at all. As it is, I lived with severe dissociative amnesia for almost thirty years before anyone – friends, family, co-workers, therapists, and most notably I myself – spotted anything out of the ordinary. If I’d spent my life waking up with strange people in strange places I might’ve known I had dissociative identity disorder much sooner. The Stranger in the Mirror, by Marlene Steinberg and Maxine Schnall How Do You Know When You're Losing Time? Most of us experience mild symptoms of it in our everyday life, like Alice, the travel consultant, who loses all track of time when she becomes engrossed in a good book - a mild form of amnesia. And while I’m sure that can and does happen, I’ve since learned that dissociative amnesia often camouflages itself so well that, until you spot the seams, it doesn’t look like anything at all.ĭissociation is not always the worst case scenario you may mistakenly think it is. I thought losing time looked like coming to in a hotel room far from home with a stranger in my bed.

It never occurred to me that I might be losing time in part because it just isn’t the most likely scenario but also because my concept of dissociative amnesia was rather farcical. And prior to my dissociative identity disorder diagnosis, I quite genuinely thought other people were chronically confused. These dissociative memory problems happen regularly for me and have for as long as I can recall. As we discussed the timeline in more detail, it became clear that I’d lost about a week of that particular stretch of time. five or six days prior to the one I was sure he departed on. My partner and I were chatting about recent events last night and she referred to the day our guest left. It’s easy to be unaware that you’re losing time at all.Ī guest stayed at our home for several days recently. In my experience, however, dissociative amnesia is startlingly surreptitious. But the phrase “losing time” suggests a highly dramatic, easily recognizable aberration. When we talk about losing time we’re talking about severe dissociative amnesia which, in a milder form, is something I believe everyone experiences. Nothing about dissociative identity disorder is quite what the most popular phrases used to describe it imply.

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